It is never easy to far from home… This month, I got many shocking stories. There was my junior in university who started to continue his study. Something happened, God called him a bit earlier than anybody else.
There also my friend, almost finish her study…. cancelled her marriage plan.
There is my friend, in so sudden… admitted that he is a gay.
There is my friend, who decided to stop continue her study because she thought she couldn’t getting well with the class in her university.
Some people even finding help, telling that they got mental health problem.
Some just lonely but don’t know what to do.
Far from home, every person might hide their own pains behind their happy selfie photos on facebook and instagram.
For years I write my blog, sometimes I got lots of email from my reader. They told me many things. Sometimes there are people who asked me “are you a psycologist” (and trust me I got that kind of message several times).
To be honest, when someone told me their problems, I can’t solve their problem. Never… I just can understand that everyone have their own “fight”. I can understand that.
But, just like any other human in this planet. I also have my own war… my own problem… my own secret. But, I have a great family. I have people I really love and I know they want to see me as a great person. Not such a grumpy weak woman. So, every time I want to cry… well, I cry! But then wipe it as soon as possible.
Today, I got a news… my mom in the hospital. And then I run as fast as possible to the airport. Finding a flight tonight.
I feel tired, worry, panic,
But… my brother, ish he must be felt that more than me.
To be far home is hard… it such a big lie that “distance is never a matter”. Distance obviously a matter.
So, for all my friends who far from home…. take care. Something might be happen. But God know that you can pass it, then we… in another leap of time, might be a better and stronger person.
Really… take care. For your good, and for all people you love and love you.
(Haneda Airport, August 2017)